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Tears of blood


[The poem is written as a tribute and encouragement to the unfortunate rape victims of the society who are fighting every day to live with dignity. This poem is published in Read In Park]

Never had known pain,
As I do now…
Never knew what grief is,
But I do now…

When the morning sun knocks on my window,
I weep silently recalling that loathsome night,
When the rays fall on my wet pillow,
I wail in self pity ending another sleepless night.

Every morning I look into the mirror
To see the detested face,
Robbed, touched, raped,
I now loathe my every single trace.

I had begged for help,
Had cried for mercy,
But no one took a single step,
That night to rescue me

  
They jeered at my pain,
Laughed at my plight,
“Men” they called themselves
Those beasts of that night

The fear that arouse in me,
I fear it may bring my death
Growing day by day,
It questions my each breath

The bruises on my face will heal,
But the trauma evoked
The scars on my heart
Might take forever to be cured

I refuse to touch myself now,
I fear to go out,
I deny myself food and clothes
I wail my heart out

To forget whatever happened,
 I try each day
But the memories enliven
And I fail every single day

I wonder if I get to live
A normal life like the others
Without questions or doubts
Nor sympathy from others

Withal, I fight back my tears,
And hold my head high
As the one who should be ashamed
Are those beasts  of that night.






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  1. RahulJuly 16, 2012 at 8:58 PM

    Your words create magic ... the 2-3 minute read builds up such an environment that i can feel the pain of your words ... Very well written indeed... You breathe in life to your words ...

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  2. Sanhita BaruahJuly 16, 2012 at 9:13 PM

    thanks Rahul.. good readers like u are what my poems look for :)

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  3. provoqdJuly 17, 2012 at 12:14 AM

    The plight of young girls who undergo such trauma well depicted Sanhita. Our world is changing at a pace which is too rapid for us. The security is a big concern for all the females and I just pray that some sense is knocked into the beasts you mentioned in the poem.
    Meaningful poetry Sanhita :)

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  4. indu chhibberJuly 17, 2012 at 12:51 PM

    Goose bumps all over... your expression of that happening is full of pain & anguish-----how do these beasts live with themselves? Certainly it is they who need to hide their faces if at all they choose to live, & it would be a shame if they chose to live on...the earth will be a better place without them.

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  5. Sanhita BaruahJuly 17, 2012 at 2:14 PM

    Thanks Jay Singh and Indu chibber :)

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  6. Saru SinghalJuly 17, 2012 at 10:00 PM

    Very powerful! Kuods to you for writing such a brilliant poem.

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  7. RahulJuly 17, 2012 at 10:09 PM

    You got a future as a writer,I must say...:-D

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  8. Sanhita BaruahJuly 18, 2012 at 1:20 PM

    @saru singhal: Thanks :)
    @Rahul : u r no less :)

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  9. RITHIKAJuly 19, 2012 at 12:13 PM

    Powerful. Very good. :)

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  10. Puru@ShadowsGaloreJuly 21, 2012 at 7:07 PM

    A very powerful poem. Makes me sad ..

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  11. Anil Kumar YerrapragadaJuly 22, 2012 at 11:13 AM

    Heart wrenching to say the least. Could feel the emotion and pain.
    Very well written :)

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  12. Sanhita BaruahJuly 22, 2012 at 12:25 PM

    @anil kumar and @puru thanks a lot for reading :) I thought of putting my feelings and sufferings in a poem and now i think i did fine:)

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  13. AbhinavJuly 23, 2012 at 9:54 PM

    Very layered and insightful. Poetry is something I cannot do well, which makes me appreciate it even more..

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  14. Sanhita BaruahJuly 24, 2012 at 12:47 AM

    Thanks Abhinav :)

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  15. Ranita SinhaJuly 26, 2012 at 12:29 PM

    Very painful..the whole incident came in front of my eyes..wish that girl be bold enough to come out of the trauma..wonderfully penned Sanhita..bor dhunia ke likhisa..

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  16. Ranita SinhaJuly 26, 2012 at 12:33 PM

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